I really miss my Anime phase. I used to be so into the stuff, but now I just cringe when I see anything remotely anime-esque. It's really hard to avoid as well, with it littering the internet and whatnot, lurking behind every corner. I find it so sad that I'm not as interested in it as I used to be. After all, it was my anime phase back in the early 2000's that triggered my passion for animation, leading me to study it at college.
I just don't like it anymore. occasionally there are some japanese animated films I'll watch and still enjoy, but I'm not the hardcore anime fangirl I once was (believe it or not), who just sat around all day watching poorly animated, badly dubbed, mass-produced CRAP. Once you've seen one episode... you've seen 'em all.

Buuut I wasn't planning to go off on a rant here. I'm actually trying to restore my anime fandom back to how it was. Being a mindless hyperactive fangirl is so much more fun than a bitter cow who just gets depressed at the sight of *shudder* NARUTO. (I actually have no plans to watch THAT ever again.)
I really do hate what i've become. If I see anyone drawing those big sparkly anime eyes, I just make fun of them in my head. Which is kinda hypocritical of me seeing how that's what I used to do in my maths books all the time

I have been watching Soul Eater lately though, and I have to say, some of the animation is quite decent. I'm not enjoying it as much as I probably would have before my anime hate-phase, but i'm giving it a chance because i'm sick of not being into anything my boyfriend is into. He doesn't really seem to understand, but I don't expect him to. It's something I just want to sort out for myself. I didn't even go to the lastest anime convention. I've been to 6- well, 5 actually, the other one was just a plain comics and sci-fi convention, (which I actually found to be more interesting anyway) My boyfriend went to the anime convention as usual. And obviously, I made fun of him for it, but in the end, I felt so lonely and depressed at home. I really wish I went. But then again, I've found that If i'm not left behind, i'm just a tag-along that doesn't fit in anyway. And i'm still trying to figure out how to deal with that.

All I really want is to accept anime again. I mean, in the end, what IS anime? its japanese for animation. And I love all kinds of animation! (when it's done well anyway)
In the end, its probably just the sterotypical factors to anime, (and also the squealing fans) that put me off. Which I really wish it didn't. I wanna enjoy anime again!

I am really hoping this anime hate-phase IS just a *phase*.